Love of My Life... Meet My Boyfriend

What I feel I am about to say is tapping into a part of me that only few have seen, and I feel like sharing it, for those who may actually want to hear it... here I go.  I am about to tell you my weakness, the one thing that keeps me alive and hope that one day, I can rest with it.  It's my true love.  She has taken me to many places and I have followed her, truly, to all kinds of different parts of the U.S.  She has many hats and just as many masks.  She has added to her collection of souls from the ones that I love, she has provided for my family for generations, she has saved my family and taken my family, when she has something to say... YOU LISTEN!  She has taught me so much without uttering a single word; she makes me cry and listens to me when I need to raise my voice, cry, break bottles, to make beauty at the same time.  She knows everything that I have ever done, worried about or ever felt about anything.  She has let my tears join hers.  She has seen the passion that is truly in my heart.  She has physically and emotionally scarred me, yet I forgive her for everything.  She runs through my veins.  Movies have been made for her.  Songs, books, laws have been written for her, yet, we don't truly know anything about her.  She has my mother with her and makes sure she can see what I am doing and know that I am safe...  she is the ocean and keeps me safe...  A form of her took my father's best friend and I can still remember the first time I saw my father cry.  To see my father cry was like seeing the toughest man that you know breaking down and at the same time seeing something you never spoke about because no one would believe it.  Like flying with Falkor through some crazy field or even going for a horseback ride with Atreyu.  No one would ever believe that, even though I so wished Falkor would show up when I was a kid.  The ocean knows everything.

Ok, so this is where it may sound a little silly and get a little --- weird.  Let me tell you about my boyfriend...  I am cool with other women and even men being with him.  If they love him, that's cool, I don't blame them.  I used to never like him because he'd dump me if I wasn't consistent or patient.  He's strong and has a hard body.  He likes to be one on one, but really enjoys groups.  Oh, the places he can take you, all in absolute beauty.  He has changed my life and brought me more joy and love then I have ever truly had.  I don't want to let him down.   He loves the calm moments, but can handle any roughness.  He always has a "built in" wingman that's always there to help.  I am sure at one point he helped provide for my ansectors and in one way or another, brought them "home."  He makes me feel so alive, so strong and feel that I have found the "full package."  I won't let anything interfere with our relationship and want others to join.  He likes it when you take him out and paddle him...  Is this weird for you yet???  He loves to be with my true love.  My boyfriend is an outrigger canoe and I am in love with him!  When you put six amazing people together and give them each a paddle and tell them to go "play" in the waves... WATCH OUT!  

I decided to move because of paddling.  I gave up a job that I was soooo excited to get and work with some of the most kick ass people, to stay here.  All on the day I was going to my first practice.  WHAT!!!  Who the hell does that?  I continue to pinch myself every now and then to see if this is all really happening.  Hell, I don't even have a job yet!  But I am a hard worker and have found work here and there until I find out.  You know, good word does travel fast if you are honest and true to you and who you surround yourself with.

I'd write more, but I need to go to sleep so I can get some rest before I go on a date with my love and my boyfriend tomorrow.  I hear we're going to a lighthouse...

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